Recluse
I will be the first to admit that I am very much reclusive. I like my quiet. I like my space, calm, drama free and just comfortable. I like having friends over, so not a total hermit, but again I so enjoy my space, solitude and not having to put on "a mask" that everything is peachy. There is so much pressure in "the outside world" that often times I just can't handle it. The down side is by enjoying a reclusive lifestyle it does get lonely at times. But I've gotten used to it mostly and am so thankful for my real friends that understand and come see me!
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Sunday, February 16, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ Q is for Quilt
Quilt
I never truly learned how to quilt. I've seen some that are so intricate and beautiful it astounds me. I think I know some of the basics but for whatever reason it was an interest never followed up on. I enjoyed crocheting many moons ago, but have forgotten that too. I think I need to relearn them as I try to find new hobbies to keep myself busy... :)
Saturday, February 15, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ P is for Perky
Perky
There was a time where I was always described as perky, and it was true. It was the persona that worked best in social or work situations. Especially when I was waiting tables. I was a good server, but always in the casual coffee shop, I don't think my personality would have fit fine dining.
Now, I'm just boring. Sadly there is not much perk left in me. I know most of that is the depression and agoraphobia but it has changed even the ability to put on such persona... and most of my "friends" didn't like the real me. They just disappeared. Sigh....
There was a time where I was always described as perky, and it was true. It was the persona that worked best in social or work situations. Especially when I was waiting tables. I was a good server, but always in the casual coffee shop, I don't think my personality would have fit fine dining.
Now, I'm just boring. Sadly there is not much perk left in me. I know most of that is the depression and agoraphobia but it has changed even the ability to put on such persona... and most of my "friends" didn't like the real me. They just disappeared. Sigh....
Thursday, February 13, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ O is for Oatmeal
Oatmeal
I love oatmeal, both old school stove top and easy add water pouches. Oatmeal was often the breakfast of choice for the family... except Lily who would not even try it. Lily was a very picky eater and often times we would have to be creative to get her to eat. I think it was her dads idea, but one morning he asked if she would like some porridge like the three bears eat. She gobbled up her oatmeal (porridge) and loved it. Funny how with just a different terminology we were able to get her to try, and like something new.
I love oatmeal, both old school stove top and easy add water pouches. Oatmeal was often the breakfast of choice for the family... except Lily who would not even try it. Lily was a very picky eater and often times we would have to be creative to get her to eat. I think it was her dads idea, but one morning he asked if she would like some porridge like the three bears eat. She gobbled up her oatmeal (porridge) and loved it. Funny how with just a different terminology we were able to get her to try, and like something new.
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ N is for (what else) Nail Polish!
Nail Polish
If you know me, then you know my love (addiction?) of nail polish. I bit my nails until I was in my late 30s and now am almost the polar opposite with the appearance of my nails. I try to keep them perfectly shaped, long and always painted pretty. Also there are always rhinestones either on middle finger or pinky. Today I painted them candy apple (Valentine) red with gold hearts on the middle finger.
Im afraid to count, and so I wont, but we can safely say I have 3 ice cream buckets full of different colors. I tend to gravitate to the chameleon colors that change, pinks and blues. :) Just recently I received some nail art type bottles in black, white and blue. They are great for stripes. I also have a small brush is which to use for any color.
Now if only I could paint others nails as well as my own...
If you know me, then you know my love (addiction?) of nail polish. I bit my nails until I was in my late 30s and now am almost the polar opposite with the appearance of my nails. I try to keep them perfectly shaped, long and always painted pretty. Also there are always rhinestones either on middle finger or pinky. Today I painted them candy apple (Valentine) red with gold hearts on the middle finger.
Im afraid to count, and so I wont, but we can safely say I have 3 ice cream buckets full of different colors. I tend to gravitate to the chameleon colors that change, pinks and blues. :) Just recently I received some nail art type bottles in black, white and blue. They are great for stripes. I also have a small brush is which to use for any color.
Now if only I could paint others nails as well as my own...
Monday, February 10, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ M is for Morning
Morning
I have to admit it, I am a morning person. Granted I love sleep, but I prefer going to bed earlier so I can be up at a good hour. My body clock seems to have chosen 8ish to be the most proper awake time. I wake up with more energy, and perseverance that wears off as the day progresses. So for me, getting my cleaning done and out of the way first, makes the rest of the day better. :)
I have to admit it, I am a morning person. Granted I love sleep, but I prefer going to bed earlier so I can be up at a good hour. My body clock seems to have chosen 8ish to be the most proper awake time. I wake up with more energy, and perseverance that wears off as the day progresses. So for me, getting my cleaning done and out of the way first, makes the rest of the day better. :)
Sunday, February 9, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ L is for Lost
Lost
I have gotten myself a couple times but I am very thankful for the power of mapquest and navigation on phone. Really nothing too major or important lol.
Now feeling lost, thats a whole different story. I feel lost daily. I am wandering alone, towards nothing. You kind of get used to it...
I have gotten myself a couple times but I am very thankful for the power of mapquest and navigation on phone. Really nothing too major or important lol.
Now feeling lost, thats a whole different story. I feel lost daily. I am wandering alone, towards nothing. You kind of get used to it...
Friday, February 7, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ K is for Kettle
Kettle
Having a tea kettle was always a must have when I had my own kitchen. Even recently I missed it. I don't notice it much, I guess, unless I want tea. That usually happens when I'm sick. That said, I have already discovered and been spoiled by the electric tea kettles and plan on purchasing one. They are awesome!
Having a tea kettle was always a must have when I had my own kitchen. Even recently I missed it. I don't notice it much, I guess, unless I want tea. That usually happens when I'm sick. That said, I have already discovered and been spoiled by the electric tea kettles and plan on purchasing one. They are awesome!
Thursday, February 6, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ J is for Jingle
Jingle
I love the sound of wind chimes. I know they don't really jingle, but close enough! Now that I rent a room as opposed to a real apartment, I had to get creative with the two chimes I have. One is hanging in my "kitchen area" from a nail in the unfinished ceiling, while the other is smack in the middle of the room hanging down from a light shade over the ceiling light. I run into it at least once daily. I know its there, but sometimes just don't wanna duck. lol
Many Christmas's ago I was given a chime ball as a gift. Its a small, beautifully colored ball but has chimes inside, yet it is a necklace. Liam loves it when I wear it to babysit. He loves the "music ball" and will shake it so he can hear them too. There is just something calming about the sound...
I love the sound of wind chimes. I know they don't really jingle, but close enough! Now that I rent a room as opposed to a real apartment, I had to get creative with the two chimes I have. One is hanging in my "kitchen area" from a nail in the unfinished ceiling, while the other is smack in the middle of the room hanging down from a light shade over the ceiling light. I run into it at least once daily. I know its there, but sometimes just don't wanna duck. lol
Many Christmas's ago I was given a chime ball as a gift. Its a small, beautifully colored ball but has chimes inside, yet it is a necklace. Liam loves it when I wear it to babysit. He loves the "music ball" and will shake it so he can hear them too. There is just something calming about the sound...
Wednesday, February 5, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ I is for Illustration
Illustration
First and foremost, I am NOT an illustrator by any imagination. Sadly drawing in general is not one of my gifts. Even my doodles are boring! I have such admiration for all artists!
In my personal treasures I have an illustrated copy of "Little Women" that was given to me Christmas of 1975. Yes I was 5 but I loved the book. This particular copy was printed in 1970, same year I was born, and holding up well. I haven't seen another illustrated copy anywhere, thats why mine is so treasured and special. <3
First and foremost, I am NOT an illustrator by any imagination. Sadly drawing in general is not one of my gifts. Even my doodles are boring! I have such admiration for all artists!
In my personal treasures I have an illustrated copy of "Little Women" that was given to me Christmas of 1975. Yes I was 5 but I loved the book. This particular copy was printed in 1970, same year I was born, and holding up well. I haven't seen another illustrated copy anywhere, thats why mine is so treasured and special. <3
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ H is for Handbag
Handbag
I love purses and handbags! I have it controlled, but I always can find a purse to love, just not take home. I'm not worried about name brands or any of that stuff, but just something that catches my eyes. Of course with the fun of a new bag, often comes the accessories, new wallets are just as fun! I like to match, but need lots of pockets. :)
I love purses and handbags! I have it controlled, but I always can find a purse to love, just not take home. I'm not worried about name brands or any of that stuff, but just something that catches my eyes. Of course with the fun of a new bag, often comes the accessories, new wallets are just as fun! I like to match, but need lots of pockets. :)
Sunday, February 2, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ G is for Game
Game (lets make it easy today)
So the "big game" just ended and being from Washington Im glad the Seahawks won, however growing up in a Bronco household, I was still hopeful.
I don't watch a lot of televised sports, football definitely included, but there is something just more "fun" about the super bowl. I must admit that I've loved all the jokes about Washington and Colorado being legal weed states. This year was mellow for me, no parties or anything. I had the game on while doing other things, laundry, chores, just fussing about and keeping eye on tv. Now the tv is off bc I don't really care enough for the after show!
To all Seahawk fans... WOOOOOOOT!! Sorry Denver.... Sorry dad, I know you've been probably yelling at the tv for hours!
So the "big game" just ended and being from Washington Im glad the Seahawks won, however growing up in a Bronco household, I was still hopeful.
I don't watch a lot of televised sports, football definitely included, but there is something just more "fun" about the super bowl. I must admit that I've loved all the jokes about Washington and Colorado being legal weed states. This year was mellow for me, no parties or anything. I had the game on while doing other things, laundry, chores, just fussing about and keeping eye on tv. Now the tv is off bc I don't really care enough for the after show!
To all Seahawk fans... WOOOOOOOT!! Sorry Denver.... Sorry dad, I know you've been probably yelling at the tv for hours!
Friday, January 31, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ F is for Freeze
Freeze (Freezing)
As it is 32* outside I can truly say its freezing cold! I so dislike Winter!! Not being into any Winter sports like skiing or anything, its just cold and miserable! We have been fairly lucky in Spokane as we haven't had a bad Winter in many years. No complaints here!! I do appreciate the beauty of snowfall however. Yesterday was a day with the big fluffy flakes and it was almost magical to watch... from the warmth of the inside through a window!
As it is 32* outside I can truly say its freezing cold! I so dislike Winter!! Not being into any Winter sports like skiing or anything, its just cold and miserable! We have been fairly lucky in Spokane as we haven't had a bad Winter in many years. No complaints here!! I do appreciate the beauty of snowfall however. Yesterday was a day with the big fluffy flakes and it was almost magical to watch... from the warmth of the inside through a window!
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ E is for Energy
Energy
Growing up the one thing I miss is the energy I used to have. I watch Liam run laps around the house and wish I had a fraction of his energy. Two year olds are a powder keg! lol I know I used too. I can feel myself getting older, and honestly knowing my weight doesn't help. I am again on the losing it end side of my weight loss journey, which is wonderful, and one of the things returning is my energy, however the aches and pains remind me that I am over 40. Thank goodness for ibuprofen :)
Growing up the one thing I miss is the energy I used to have. I watch Liam run laps around the house and wish I had a fraction of his energy. Two year olds are a powder keg! lol I know I used too. I can feel myself getting older, and honestly knowing my weight doesn't help. I am again on the losing it end side of my weight loss journey, which is wonderful, and one of the things returning is my energy, however the aches and pains remind me that I am over 40. Thank goodness for ibuprofen :)
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ D is for Duck
Duck
I love ducks! I don't know why, but they always make me smile. I used to love to go to the park, or the river and feed and watch the ducks. At one point we lived across the street from the Spokane River that had a little rock beach and lots of ducks. The school bus driver would have to wait for them to cross occasionally. Silly ducks!
Ducks also have a personal meaning. Something special between Lenee and I. She and I have matching little porcelain ducks that is one of my "treasures". With that theme she also made me a necklace in which she drew Nana duck (me) with 2 little ducklings for Collin and Liam, yet again another treasure! She even made me a duck snowflake! I wish I still had that....
I love ducks! I don't know why, but they always make me smile. I used to love to go to the park, or the river and feed and watch the ducks. At one point we lived across the street from the Spokane River that had a little rock beach and lots of ducks. The school bus driver would have to wait for them to cross occasionally. Silly ducks!
Ducks also have a personal meaning. Something special between Lenee and I. She and I have matching little porcelain ducks that is one of my "treasures". With that theme she also made me a necklace in which she drew Nana duck (me) with 2 little ducklings for Collin and Liam, yet again another treasure! She even made me a duck snowflake! I wish I still had that....
Monday, January 27, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ C is for Cruel/Cruelty
Cruel / Cruelty
My general "motto" is play nice. With that includes whatever deserved respect. I am not a saint and have said and done some mean things, not too many lol, but I have never been what I think of as cruel to another, intentionally or otherwise. I dont understand the cruelty that goes on, how someone can go out of their way to hurt another person or animal. What kind of thinking is that? Do they have no conscious, or just no knowledge of how words or actions can seriously hurt.
My general "motto" is play nice. With that includes whatever deserved respect. I am not a saint and have said and done some mean things, not too many lol, but I have never been what I think of as cruel to another, intentionally or otherwise. I dont understand the cruelty that goes on, how someone can go out of their way to hurt another person or animal. What kind of thinking is that? Do they have no conscious, or just no knowledge of how words or actions can seriously hurt.
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Daily prompt ~ B is for Burn
Burn
They say that bad days start at the beginning and only you can make it better. Every completely shit day I have encountered, usually started with a burnt bagel or toast. Im not saying there is a connection, but maybe a subtle warning to go back to bed and ask for a do over!
They say that bad days start at the beginning and only you can make it better. Every completely shit day I have encountered, usually started with a burnt bagel or toast. Im not saying there is a connection, but maybe a subtle warning to go back to bed and ask for a do over!
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ A is for Again
Again
This is a definitely a suited word for the timing. I apologise for not writing for a bit, sometimes real life takes precedence over other things and my writing gets pushed aside.
But here I am again, to try to write daily. I've recently been better at paper journaling, but those are for no ones eyes but my own. Its much easier to hide on pen and paper than the oh so public interwebs lol. But again, I climb from the ashes and am trying to rebuild. I actually made it to the walk on Sunday. I've missed the outings and refuse to let anyone muscle me away with awkwardness, if they feel awkward.... don't come, I'm done hiding!
With as many "agains" as I see in the coming year, I also see the even more "never again" messages. I just need to listen to them more often!
This is a definitely a suited word for the timing. I apologise for not writing for a bit, sometimes real life takes precedence over other things and my writing gets pushed aside.
But here I am again, to try to write daily. I've recently been better at paper journaling, but those are for no ones eyes but my own. Its much easier to hide on pen and paper than the oh so public interwebs lol. But again, I climb from the ashes and am trying to rebuild. I actually made it to the walk on Sunday. I've missed the outings and refuse to let anyone muscle me away with awkwardness, if they feel awkward.... don't come, I'm done hiding!
With as many "agains" as I see in the coming year, I also see the even more "never again" messages. I just need to listen to them more often!
Saturday, January 4, 2014
Daily Prompt ~ Z is for Zoo
Zoo
Even though I was born in Salt Lake, and there are pics, I have no memory of going to a real zoo. Now as an adult, I wish that I had some animal memories. I would like to go to Seattle at some point and visit their zoo, not that I travel. lol Who knows... maybe someday...
Even though I was born in Salt Lake, and there are pics, I have no memory of going to a real zoo. Now as an adult, I wish that I had some animal memories. I would like to go to Seattle at some point and visit their zoo, not that I travel. lol Who knows... maybe someday...
Thursday, January 2, 2014
Thursday morning coffee break, welcome 2014
I know, I am terrible when it comes to blogging about myself, but figured its definitely time for a catch up.
So we made it too 2014. What does this year hold? I try to be optimistic, but I fear for whats ahead. I am still playing the SSI game. Why do they make it sooooo difficult? Certainly doesn't help the anxiety issues any. I just want to have some sort of income, preferably over $200 a month so I can start living. Sigh....
The holidays were wonderful. Still have one more celebration to do when we can all get together with Collin's family as well. I spent both Thanksgiving and Christmas day with Lenee and the extended Grady clan. They have taken me in as family and I so love and appreciate that. There is a sence of peace and normalcy that I am not used too, its nice. Liam had a fantastic Christmas and is such a joy to be around. He is so smart, and very communicative for a 2 year old. I love spending time with him. The big smile and the joyful greeting of "NANA" melts my heart each time. On Thanksgiving Sue had Collin give me a call and I got a "love you grandma" from him as well. Those are the moments to hold on too! Some of the other festivities included a few days with Lily. She is growing up too fast! We went to a friends on Christmas eve and I think she had a nice time. Good friends, good food.... cant go wrong!
My CVS is still acting up. Its been better, sometimes going months in between episodes, but came back with a vengeance over the holidays. I had 2 ER visits only 8 days apart. Im hoping now that the excitement is over I will continue to feel better.
Hmmm... really not much else going on in my corner of oz. Still me and Lola against the world, I love my cat! lol
So we made it too 2014. What does this year hold? I try to be optimistic, but I fear for whats ahead. I am still playing the SSI game. Why do they make it sooooo difficult? Certainly doesn't help the anxiety issues any. I just want to have some sort of income, preferably over $200 a month so I can start living. Sigh....
The holidays were wonderful. Still have one more celebration to do when we can all get together with Collin's family as well. I spent both Thanksgiving and Christmas day with Lenee and the extended Grady clan. They have taken me in as family and I so love and appreciate that. There is a sence of peace and normalcy that I am not used too, its nice. Liam had a fantastic Christmas and is such a joy to be around. He is so smart, and very communicative for a 2 year old. I love spending time with him. The big smile and the joyful greeting of "NANA" melts my heart each time. On Thanksgiving Sue had Collin give me a call and I got a "love you grandma" from him as well. Those are the moments to hold on too! Some of the other festivities included a few days with Lily. She is growing up too fast! We went to a friends on Christmas eve and I think she had a nice time. Good friends, good food.... cant go wrong!
My CVS is still acting up. Its been better, sometimes going months in between episodes, but came back with a vengeance over the holidays. I had 2 ER visits only 8 days apart. Im hoping now that the excitement is over I will continue to feel better.
Hmmm... really not much else going on in my corner of oz. Still me and Lola against the world, I love my cat! lol
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