So I had another blog, but have had nothing but troubles on the site so I am trying again with a new forum. I hope that this one works better. Its not like I have a lot to say... but I like to have a place to say it!
So it was a fairly good weekend. Both of my adult daughters are expecting so we met in the park yesterday for pictures. I love them both and am so excited about upcoming grandsons. I wish I could do more financially, but unfortunately that is not an option right now. Danielle is due in August and has decided on the name Collin Matthew , and Lenee is due in September and decided on the name Liam James. They picked good names too! I foresee an exciting next few months!
I am still unemployed with no nibbles. Craig has offered me a job, but he is in the process of buying the company so who knows how long that will take. Its nice to know Im his first pick though. I really enjoy bookkeeping so it will be a good thing. He is also being wonderful enough to pay my phone bill this month so I can keep communication lines open. Who would've thought that he and I would remain such good friends after such a horrible break up.
I heard from *him again. No contact for almost 2 months and then he graces me with an email about how I should hate him bc he is such a horrible person. Its sad really. I have never met anyone so consumed in their own self loathing that they are terrified and shut down at even the hint that someone might care about them. I wish I could hate him. I tried... I cant do it. I asked Kari why I cant quit thinking about him, and why I let him have such an effect on me... her answer included that dreaded L word... Im not ready to accept that. I dont really believe in that love stuff anymore. Sigh... I miss him terribly though. Even though I know he will hurt me over and over again, being in his arms, even briefly is still worth it!
The kittens are getting bigger. They are almost a month old now and so adorable. Im glad there is only 2 of them though, and I think mama kitty is too! Right now they are trying to learn how to get out of the basket. They each have made it out once so if they keep practicing soon we wont need the basket! lol
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