Im back

So I haven't blogged in forever but feel like its a good time to start again.  After all isn't this a forum where I can ramble about the mundane existence that I call my life.  Yep, that's right, you get this...  lol

So things are just about the same in my sad little world.  Romantically - well since I last posted he I and got back together 2ce and broken up again. This time however I am done.  I wish we were friends still however.  Not the hang out type of friends, as I really dont think I could see him in person, but I would be happy to talk email, Facebook, text or even phone.  Unfortunately he is better by erasing me completely.  However that led me to some self revelations that some of you will bitch about, but again, this is my blog, my forum, get over it.  Anyhow, my revelation is this... I am not meant to be in a relationship.   I am toxic.  2ce I have taken good, driven, motivated men, and left them unemployed, and broken.  Others would prefer to completely erase me and any knowledge that they ever knew me.  Thats the part that hurts the most.  It makes me wonder truly what is so wrong with me that it is better erase me that admit they know me.  However I have taken the hint and am not going to put anyone else through that and stay to myself.

So medically I broke down and finally got a Dr.  I explained to him my phobia of Dr's and my past treatment. This Dr is wonderful!  He knows about CVS and even let me know that he has done more research since I became his patient.  He has me on 2 different medications, well 3 if you count the exercising regiment but I am hopeful that it will work.  I have discovered that exercising  will set me off on a CVS attack so we now know how to prevent that.  I was worried about going to the Dr bc *J goes to the same clinic but so far I have been lucky and not ran into him!

On the exercise note, I have been trying to take walks daily.  At first the pain in my back, hips and then tummy was really an issue.  But as I said Dr put me on meds before I go.  So now I take an anti nausea and a couple Tylenol and off I go.   My goal is to find something to mention each day that I notice and bore you with it!! I am up to 3.25 mile per average.  The weight is coming off too and that makes me happy!

Well lovies, I am going to run away as the sleepys are hitting so I am going to run away.  I promise to be more writing of my daily efforts...