Moment of "rest"

So today is the big day.  Dana's C-section is scheduled for 8:30pm.  With as much back and forth as the drs have been, I really hope it happens!  Poor Dana is getting frustrated and sooooo impatient!  But it will be wonderful to meet Collin and hold my new grandson!

Did some job apps today.  I applied for a call center position that I am pretty confident about.  I really didn't want to do call center work again, but I'm good at it so...  Also with it being my bane of existence for the last 8 years I'm kinda stuck.  :)

Well, laundry is going and basic chores done so I think its time to shower and get ready to go back to the hospital.  It sure was nice sleeping in my own bed last night!

update...

So the Drs have decided NOT to do the surgery today.  With some changes to her meds, the blood pressure is at a controllable leval so they are going to continue monitoring and see what happens.  Dana will still be having a c-section, but (hopefully) not for another week or 2.  Always best to let baby go close to term!

Side note.... I am freaking exhausted!  I have appointments I need to take care of today but told Dana I will be back tonight and agreed to sleep on the hospital hide-a-bed for another evening.  I know she doesnt want to be alone :)

update...

So  Dana has been admitted to the hospital.  They will be doing a C section tomorrow and we will be welcoming little Collin to the world.  Exciting but scary times.  I will be staying here tonight so she wont be alone.  I will continue to update as we learn more.

the next cycle begins...

Dana has been admitted to the hospital.  Today she went for an appt and they have discovered that the baby is breach.  That, combined with high blood pressure and her epilepsy, they have decided to do a  C-section.  Right now I am waiting to hear from her and then I will be going down there.  They are still doing some tests before getting her settled into a room.

Its such a strange mix of emotions.  I am excited, but concerned.  I still don't know if she is ready for all of this, but she will be a mommy very, very soon...

gate to...

Today I saw a gate to nowhere.  It was off the road a ways, open, and behind it just more wooded area.  There was no sign of a "road" or even trail on either side.  It made me wonder what once was.  Someone loved the gate for it was decorated with a large pot of red flowers on each fence post on either side.  I wish I could've stopped and taken a picture.  Maybe next time...

a day of rejection

I had 4 (yes 1-2-3-4) thank you for applying but we are going with another applicant emails in my inbox today.  Grrrr.   Thats a lot of rejection for one inbox...

On the upside Dana started having contractions last night.  They stopped, and she is currently at her Drs appt, but it definitely means that little Collin will be here soon!

Here we go again / Monday coffee break

So I had another blog, but have had nothing but troubles on the site so I am trying again with a new forum.  I hope that this one works better.  Its not like I have a lot to say... but I like to have a place to say it!

So it was a fairly good weekend.  Both of my adult daughters are expecting so we met in the park yesterday for pictures.  I love them both and am so excited about upcoming grandsons.  I wish I could do more financially, but unfortunately that is not an option right now.  Danielle is due in August and has decided on the name Collin Matthew , and Lenee is due in September and decided on the name Liam James.  They picked good names too!   I foresee an exciting next few months!

I am still unemployed with no nibbles.  Craig has offered me a job, but he is in the process of buying the company so who knows how long that will take.  Its nice to know Im his first pick though.  I really enjoy bookkeeping so it will be a good thing.  He is also being wonderful enough to pay my phone bill this month so I can keep communication lines open.  Who would've thought that he and I would remain such good friends after such a horrible break up.

I heard from *him again.  No contact for almost 2 months and then he graces me with an email about how I should hate him bc he is such a horrible person.  Its sad really.  I have never met anyone so consumed in their own self loathing that they are terrified and shut down at even the hint that someone might care about them.  I wish I could hate him.  I tried...  I cant do it.  I asked Kari why I cant quit thinking about him, and why I let him have such an effect on me... her answer included that dreaded L word... Im not ready to accept that.  I dont really believe in that love stuff anymore.  Sigh... I miss him terribly though.  Even though I know he will hurt me over and over again, being in his arms, even briefly is still worth it!

The kittens are getting bigger.  They are almost a month old now and so adorable.  Im glad there is only 2 of them though, and I think mama kitty is too!  Right now they are trying to learn how to get out of the basket.  They each have made it out once so if they keep practicing soon we wont need the basket! lol