Keepsake
I love keepsakes, and trinkets. I have a large treasure chest and a smaller one. The treasures inside vary, but I know the story behind most. Some are obvious, cards, a playbill or movie ticket stub from dates, my children's report cards and artwork, love letters and old journals. Some are not so obvious to most, a rock, a lighter, or a tiny porcelain duck. All my treasures.
I love trinket boxes too. I may not have anything to put in them, but still like the way they look. I want a puzzle box, but have never gone to truly purchase. Trinket boxes are easy to find at most thrift stores, then they have a story...
Friday, August 23, 2013
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Daily Prompt ~ Jump
Jump
As most of you know, I love bunnies! They are my favorite animal. I have of course the cute collection of ceramics, stuffies, an oil painting and even bunny jewelry. I have had a couple different pet rabbits, but Stephen was my favorite. I was able to box train him, and he had stairs so he could sleep with me at night. I loved that boy! He was a large Florida white and sooooo affectionate! The girls would go to the corner store on weekends and they would give us the not quite fresh produce, but good for rabbits. Stephen ate good on weekends. lol
Another of my favorite things about bunnies are the show jumping bunnies! I would love to have a bunny to train to jump like that!! If you haven't seen them in action check it out here! Too cute too miss! As I close I will end with a picture of me and Stephen on the day we met :)
As most of you know, I love bunnies! They are my favorite animal. I have of course the cute collection of ceramics, stuffies, an oil painting and even bunny jewelry. I have had a couple different pet rabbits, but Stephen was my favorite. I was able to box train him, and he had stairs so he could sleep with me at night. I loved that boy! He was a large Florida white and sooooo affectionate! The girls would go to the corner store on weekends and they would give us the not quite fresh produce, but good for rabbits. Stephen ate good on weekends. lol
Another of my favorite things about bunnies are the show jumping bunnies! I would love to have a bunny to train to jump like that!! If you haven't seen them in action check it out here! Too cute too miss! As I close I will end with a picture of me and Stephen on the day we met :)
Monday, August 19, 2013
Monday afternoon coffee break
I know it has been almost a month again. Truth is, there just isn't much to talk about on day to day basis. I really am that boring!!
On the personal level, I am still fighting this depression. We tried an initial adding of meds after the last meltdown, but still wasn't enough. I was doing better, for the most part. I had begun walking on daily basis again, and in return losing a little of the weight put back on. I was beginning to feel social and a little more me. Then came the monthly surge of hormones.... It was bad again. Back to where I started with last months meltdown. I spent a day crying over nothing and everything, my self loathing was strong, my sense of purpose lost, again I went into that strange autopilot mode and hurt myself, waiting, hoping, that it would hurt this time and let me know I was still capable of feeling anything other than despair. I wanted to hide, but at the same time just wished I had someone who could just hold me and reassure me that its all ok. Of course that didn't happen. However James turned out to be my hero of the evening. He was online and initiated conversation. He turned on a new station calling it Anji Fm, since I was the only listener and playing things I would like. Even only via computer he kept me "company" until after 4am, and distracted me enough that I quit crying and became functional. I don't know how that night would have ended without him. I'm glad we're friends again!
So with that meltdown came days of insomnia, no exercise in almost a week now, and a Dr apt last Friday. They have upped my meds again, hoping we can get the right combo. I really, really hope so, but feel we won't really know until next month when PMS hits again. Oh fingers crossed! I hate being out of control like that. I'm even trying to get the uummpphhh enough to work out tonight. I haven't even been thinking about it for a bit, that's a good sign I think! Tomorrow we are walking! I need to get back on track.
On the financial area of things.... they still suck!! I got my first denial from SSI with a pretty lame as excuse for denial, so I am going to appeal. I hope I don't have to lawyer up, but I am beginning to see it is the only option if I want this done. I can't live on $120 a month. Its only the middle of the month, and I'm out of things needed, right now major is cat litter. Sigh.... I'm a bad kitty mommy! At least she has food!
Romantically..... things are (as always) in that lovely grey area. I can't seem to break trend of wanting the unattainable. Falling for the men that will never love me back. Its easier to hide, I keep trying to remember that.
Family is all doing well as far as I know. Collin is now two. Such a big, beautiful boy! He still has those amazing eyes, and a head full of curls. I wish we could see him more, but understand how busy things can be. I haven't got to hang out with Liam recently, every time they needed a sitter I had an appointment of one kind or the other. Still have at least 2 more before end of month. Its so nice to have medical! But today Lenee posted a video of him, he really likes grapes haha. I love those boys! Still no contact with Danielle. Even though I need to protect myself and remember this is for the best, it still hurts a mothers heart. I worry for her and hope good things every day for her. Sadly the last time I saw her physically she looked "pharmaceutically skinny". I would bet money (if I had any) that she is on meth, and doing god knows what to get it. Hopefully she isn't to lost, and someday she will get the help she needs thus allowing her back into the family. The last time seeing Lily was when we went to see her in the play. She is 16 now and growing into such a beautiful young woman. Her new beau is a little cutie pie too. I like seeing her happy!!
Well, sadly that's really about it. This week I have a movie night scheduled with a friend who likes horror movies as much as I do. If you like a good gory movie, watch "The Collection", available now on streaming Netflix. OMG! Its a crazy movie but awesome, and as I posted in my movie blog, Was It Scary, one of the best mass execution scenes ever! Other than that no plans. The gang is going to karaoke on Friday, and a friend is having birthday party at same bar Saturday. I don't know if I'm up for either. I said I would go on Friday for disco night. It will be fun, however the more I think about it, the more unsure I am about going. Being mildly agoraphobic gets even more than mild when depressed. Even if I went I'd be afraid of being the wet blanket and I wouldn't want to ruin everyone else's good time. Hmm... I think I settled my mind on this topic. Hahaha
On the personal level, I am still fighting this depression. We tried an initial adding of meds after the last meltdown, but still wasn't enough. I was doing better, for the most part. I had begun walking on daily basis again, and in return losing a little of the weight put back on. I was beginning to feel social and a little more me. Then came the monthly surge of hormones.... It was bad again. Back to where I started with last months meltdown. I spent a day crying over nothing and everything, my self loathing was strong, my sense of purpose lost, again I went into that strange autopilot mode and hurt myself, waiting, hoping, that it would hurt this time and let me know I was still capable of feeling anything other than despair. I wanted to hide, but at the same time just wished I had someone who could just hold me and reassure me that its all ok. Of course that didn't happen. However James turned out to be my hero of the evening. He was online and initiated conversation. He turned on a new station calling it Anji Fm, since I was the only listener and playing things I would like. Even only via computer he kept me "company" until after 4am, and distracted me enough that I quit crying and became functional. I don't know how that night would have ended without him. I'm glad we're friends again!
So with that meltdown came days of insomnia, no exercise in almost a week now, and a Dr apt last Friday. They have upped my meds again, hoping we can get the right combo. I really, really hope so, but feel we won't really know until next month when PMS hits again. Oh fingers crossed! I hate being out of control like that. I'm even trying to get the uummpphhh enough to work out tonight. I haven't even been thinking about it for a bit, that's a good sign I think! Tomorrow we are walking! I need to get back on track.
On the financial area of things.... they still suck!! I got my first denial from SSI with a pretty lame as excuse for denial, so I am going to appeal. I hope I don't have to lawyer up, but I am beginning to see it is the only option if I want this done. I can't live on $120 a month. Its only the middle of the month, and I'm out of things needed, right now major is cat litter. Sigh.... I'm a bad kitty mommy! At least she has food!
Romantically..... things are (as always) in that lovely grey area. I can't seem to break trend of wanting the unattainable. Falling for the men that will never love me back. Its easier to hide, I keep trying to remember that.
Family is all doing well as far as I know. Collin is now two. Such a big, beautiful boy! He still has those amazing eyes, and a head full of curls. I wish we could see him more, but understand how busy things can be. I haven't got to hang out with Liam recently, every time they needed a sitter I had an appointment of one kind or the other. Still have at least 2 more before end of month. Its so nice to have medical! But today Lenee posted a video of him, he really likes grapes haha. I love those boys! Still no contact with Danielle. Even though I need to protect myself and remember this is for the best, it still hurts a mothers heart. I worry for her and hope good things every day for her. Sadly the last time I saw her physically she looked "pharmaceutically skinny". I would bet money (if I had any) that she is on meth, and doing god knows what to get it. Hopefully she isn't to lost, and someday she will get the help she needs thus allowing her back into the family. The last time seeing Lily was when we went to see her in the play. She is 16 now and growing into such a beautiful young woman. Her new beau is a little cutie pie too. I like seeing her happy!!
Well, sadly that's really about it. This week I have a movie night scheduled with a friend who likes horror movies as much as I do. If you like a good gory movie, watch "The Collection", available now on streaming Netflix. OMG! Its a crazy movie but awesome, and as I posted in my movie blog, Was It Scary, one of the best mass execution scenes ever! Other than that no plans. The gang is going to karaoke on Friday, and a friend is having birthday party at same bar Saturday. I don't know if I'm up for either. I said I would go on Friday for disco night. It will be fun, however the more I think about it, the more unsure I am about going. Being mildly agoraphobic gets even more than mild when depressed. Even if I went I'd be afraid of being the wet blanket and I wouldn't want to ruin everyone else's good time. Hmm... I think I settled my mind on this topic. Hahaha
Saturday, August 17, 2013
Daily prompt ~ Idea
Idea
I enjoy writing but coming up with idea's on my own seems to be difficult. That is why I do this, the little ramblings based on a one word idea. The list I use is A to Z and simple enough (in theory) to pick a word out of the list on appropriate letter. My problem with the "master list" is that some letters only have two or three words to choose from. Heres where I need your help. My idea is this, please leave a comment with any one word prompts that at some point will be picked and rambled about. I need lots more words! Thank you dear readers <3
I enjoy writing but coming up with idea's on my own seems to be difficult. That is why I do this, the little ramblings based on a one word idea. The list I use is A to Z and simple enough (in theory) to pick a word out of the list on appropriate letter. My problem with the "master list" is that some letters only have two or three words to choose from. Heres where I need your help. My idea is this, please leave a comment with any one word prompts that at some point will be picked and rambled about. I need lots more words! Thank you dear readers <3
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Daily Prompt ~ Hands
Hands
I have never been too happy with my hands. I have small hands with short chubby fingers. When I was younger I bit my nails to the bloody quicks which never helped. With sausage fingers, and no fingernails, it looked terriblee. When available finacially I used to pay to get my nails done. I always felt just a little prettier when I bought nails. When I did finally quit biting my nails in 2007, I became obsessed with keeping them perfectly shaped and polished. I now have quite the collection, and possibly an addiction to nail polish. There are always so many pretty new colors!! I try to do them at least once a week, but often will get bored and change them more often. So now I have pretty nails, and middle aged hands. Its wierd when you start to notice things looking "older". My hands seem worn, skin almost loose and every scar and scratch ever had seems to show up more. Also now I am getting the pangs of arthritis in the joints... getting old sucks!!
Today's prompt again brought to us by Scruffy-loves LJ
I have never been too happy with my hands. I have small hands with short chubby fingers. When I was younger I bit my nails to the bloody quicks which never helped. With sausage fingers, and no fingernails, it looked terriblee. When available finacially I used to pay to get my nails done. I always felt just a little prettier when I bought nails. When I did finally quit biting my nails in 2007, I became obsessed with keeping them perfectly shaped and polished. I now have quite the collection, and possibly an addiction to nail polish. There are always so many pretty new colors!! I try to do them at least once a week, but often will get bored and change them more often. So now I have pretty nails, and middle aged hands. Its wierd when you start to notice things looking "older". My hands seem worn, skin almost loose and every scar and scratch ever had seems to show up more. Also now I am getting the pangs of arthritis in the joints... getting old sucks!!
Today's prompt again brought to us by Scruffy-loves LJ
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Daily prompt ~ Gift
Gift
Who doesn't love presents? But its true that the greatest gifts cant be wrapped and handed over. The gift of time, the gift of love, the gift of conversation etc. I try to present those in my life with whatever they need, sometimes even if that is the gift of absence.
Who doesn't love presents? But its true that the greatest gifts cant be wrapped and handed over. The gift of time, the gift of love, the gift of conversation etc. I try to present those in my life with whatever they need, sometimes even if that is the gift of absence.
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
Daily Prompt ~ Fly
Fly
So as most of you know I live with my very spoiled bi-polar cat Lola, who is my kitty soul mate. Part of the understanding between person and a mighty feline huntress like Lola is that if there is a bug the cats job is to catch said creepy crawly and make it lunch! Well, not in our case. Lola will point them out, then back up and wait for me to kill it. She will continue pointing it out until it either disappears or I get it. Today however, she stalked and caught a fly. She even did the little butt wiggle right before pouncing. I was very proud of her, and I think she was of herself too. The mighty feline huntress...
Today's prompt brought to us again by Scruffy-love's LJ. I really like the alphabetized list, if you couldn't tell lol
So as most of you know I live with my very spoiled bi-polar cat Lola, who is my kitty soul mate. Part of the understanding between person and a mighty feline huntress like Lola is that if there is a bug the cats job is to catch said creepy crawly and make it lunch! Well, not in our case. Lola will point them out, then back up and wait for me to kill it. She will continue pointing it out until it either disappears or I get it. Today however, she stalked and caught a fly. She even did the little butt wiggle right before pouncing. I was very proud of her, and I think she was of herself too. The mighty feline huntress...
Today's prompt brought to us again by Scruffy-love's LJ. I really like the alphabetized list, if you couldn't tell lol
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
Daily Prompt ~ Eyes
Eyes
When asked what is something I notice first about a person I will usually answer eyes. The old saying about eyes being the window to the soul I believe to be so true. Emotions and thoughts that cannot be placed into words can often be seen in the eyes. Complete conversations with just a look...
My eyes can get me into trouble as they are too expressive. Some people wear their heart on their sleeve, mine is in the eyes. According to a couple past gentlemen friends, my eyes also change when angry or frisky. I think its probably a good thing that I can't see them myself. lol
Today's prompt brought to us by Scruffy-love's LJ
When asked what is something I notice first about a person I will usually answer eyes. The old saying about eyes being the window to the soul I believe to be so true. Emotions and thoughts that cannot be placed into words can often be seen in the eyes. Complete conversations with just a look...
My eyes can get me into trouble as they are too expressive. Some people wear their heart on their sleeve, mine is in the eyes. According to a couple past gentlemen friends, my eyes also change when angry or frisky. I think its probably a good thing that I can't see them myself. lol
Today's prompt brought to us by Scruffy-love's LJ
Monday, August 5, 2013
Daily Prompt ~ Delicate
Delicate
Recently when I was housesitting a friend and I were sitting on the front porch, enjoying a nice summer day when we noticed something on her phone screen. It was a tiny, delicate wing... of something. It was so beautiful in its delicacy and we tried saving it, but somehow it got lost. I like to think that it was a fairy wing, someone saying hello that morning. :)
Today's prompt brought to us by scruffy-love lj
Recently when I was housesitting a friend and I were sitting on the front porch, enjoying a nice summer day when we noticed something on her phone screen. It was a tiny, delicate wing... of something. It was so beautiful in its delicacy and we tried saving it, but somehow it got lost. I like to think that it was a fairy wing, someone saying hello that morning. :)
Today's prompt brought to us by scruffy-love lj
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Daily Prompt: Cards
Cards
I love when one words brings up so many different thoughts.
My first thought was the decline of cards we receive in the mail. I used to love my birthday time, and anxiously awaiting for the mail to see if I got any cards. Now they hardly arrive in person lol. I like to give cards, for any reason. If I have a gentleman in my life I often like to surprise him with the little "Im thinking of you" cards. Its usually not reciprocated, but thats ok, I still enjoy doing it.
My other thought was card games. I miss a good game of cribbage, thats not computer players. I love to play rummy but its not thought about when hanging out. All of that has also moved to more electronic choices.
I see a pattern here.... ;)
Today's prompt brought to us by scruffy-loves lj
I love when one words brings up so many different thoughts.
My first thought was the decline of cards we receive in the mail. I used to love my birthday time, and anxiously awaiting for the mail to see if I got any cards. Now they hardly arrive in person lol. I like to give cards, for any reason. If I have a gentleman in my life I often like to surprise him with the little "Im thinking of you" cards. Its usually not reciprocated, but thats ok, I still enjoy doing it.
My other thought was card games. I miss a good game of cribbage, thats not computer players. I love to play rummy but its not thought about when hanging out. All of that has also moved to more electronic choices.
I see a pattern here.... ;)
Today's prompt brought to us by scruffy-loves lj
Saturday, August 3, 2013
Daily Prompt: Books
Books
I love books, even though with the joy of the computer I certainly don't read like I used too, which is a shame and something I should work on. My love of books was installed in me by my parents. I still have my copy of "Little Women" that my mother inscribed to me Christmas of 1975 and the box set of the Winnie the Pooh books. Those are a couple of my treasures. Of course I also have many classics such as "Jane Eyre", "Watership down", Dickens, Poe, Grimm etc... My collection now is mostly horror or true crime books. I love them!
I have noticed though that I am a book hoarder. Even if I don't read it, I want it bc sometime I will have time to read it, and books aren't something you throw away. :)
Today's prompt brought to us by Scruffy-love lj
I love books, even though with the joy of the computer I certainly don't read like I used too, which is a shame and something I should work on. My love of books was installed in me by my parents. I still have my copy of "Little Women" that my mother inscribed to me Christmas of 1975 and the box set of the Winnie the Pooh books. Those are a couple of my treasures. Of course I also have many classics such as "Jane Eyre", "Watership down", Dickens, Poe, Grimm etc... My collection now is mostly horror or true crime books. I love them!
I have noticed though that I am a book hoarder. Even if I don't read it, I want it bc sometime I will have time to read it, and books aren't something you throw away. :)
Today's prompt brought to us by Scruffy-love lj
Friday, August 2, 2013
Daily Prompt ~ List 10 (or more) things that make you smile
Ten things that make me smile (in no particular order)
1. friends and family (of course get the easy one out of the way)
2. new music that is love at first song
3. the first cup of coffee in the morning
4. bunnies
5. seeing (or even just thinking) about the way "he" looks and smiles at me
6. a perfect manicure
7. presents
8. my kitty Lola
9. the sound of rain outside my window
10. chocolate :)
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1. friends and family (of course get the easy one out of the way)
2. new music that is love at first song
3. the first cup of coffee in the morning
4. bunnies
5. seeing (or even just thinking) about the way "he" looks and smiles at me
6. a perfect manicure
7. presents
8. my kitty Lola
9. the sound of rain outside my window
10. chocolate :)
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Thursday, August 1, 2013
Daily Prompt ~ Ash
Ash
Living in Spokane Washington most of my life, I like many of will think of May 18th, 1980, the day Mt. St. Helens erupted when we think of the word ash. I was ten years old, and my siblings were 5 and 2 months. My mom was in the hospital and dad had kid duty. I think it was a particularly difficult time getting baby Catie to sleep so he sent Jon and I outside to play so the house was quiet. The sky was getting dark and we complained, bc we didn't want to get wet. I remember my dad saying "a little rain wont hurt ya" and the door closed. I don't know how long we were outside but the ash had begun falling from the sky, and we were confused. My father saw a broadcast and quickly called us in. The next few days were fascinating. The world outside was different, deserted and covered in piles of grey. As a child, I don't know what clean up was like, I do know that we weren't allowed outside without a mask bc you didn't want to breathe it in. We scooped some in a jar... that I still have today :)
Today's prompt brought to us by Scruffy-Love's LJ
Living in Spokane Washington most of my life, I like many of will think of May 18th, 1980, the day Mt. St. Helens erupted when we think of the word ash. I was ten years old, and my siblings were 5 and 2 months. My mom was in the hospital and dad had kid duty. I think it was a particularly difficult time getting baby Catie to sleep so he sent Jon and I outside to play so the house was quiet. The sky was getting dark and we complained, bc we didn't want to get wet. I remember my dad saying "a little rain wont hurt ya" and the door closed. I don't know how long we were outside but the ash had begun falling from the sky, and we were confused. My father saw a broadcast and quickly called us in. The next few days were fascinating. The world outside was different, deserted and covered in piles of grey. As a child, I don't know what clean up was like, I do know that we weren't allowed outside without a mask bc you didn't want to breathe it in. We scooped some in a jar... that I still have today :)
Today's prompt brought to us by Scruffy-Love's LJ
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