random....

So there are some etiquette rules when walking along the sidewalk.  One of these things are when passing someone, if eye contact is made, some sort of greeting is almost expected even if it is an awkward "hello" while on way.

Today as I was walking I passed a woman who upon our passing, looked me right in the eye and said simply, "Things will get better".

I couldn't respond, but was uplifted by her simple statement...  things will get better!

observations made today....

So as before mentioned I am walking almost daily and starting to really enjoy them.  My route of choice is about 4 miles now, and I have already mapped the next "extensions" when I am ready to go longer.  Today I made several observations, and found $0.18! lol

Neighborhood dogs are getting used to me.  There are several now that used to bark as I walked by, now they just look at me.... Oh her again!

The flowers are blooming!!  Ive seen lots of starts but today was the first blooming daffodils that I have seen and they made me smile.  No tulips yet, but I keep looking for them also.  Another house I pass has these little yellow flowers that I think are buttercups, I dont know but they are another happy flower of some kind.

Sidewalk chalk is interesting to walk through.  I felt I should try to walk around it as much as possible to avoid messing up some child's "masterpiece", but some steps were unavoidable!  Another house I pass has a GIANT chalkboard in the backyard.  I thought that was a fantastic idea!

Well those were a few of my observations today.  Not much going on in my little corner of the world anyhow.  SSDD as they used to say :)

Routines

Routines... we all have them weather we are aware of them or not.  It could be as simple as coffee, smoke and check your computer in specific order in morning, to day to day itinerary of list of to-dos. Sadly in my solitary lifestyle I have become the latter.  I like lists.  I like crossing shit off a list and feeling that brief moment of accomplishment.  Sad? Maybe... but it works for me! lol

Lily is here for Spring break!  Yay!  I love spending time with her.  I feel bad that I am so poor at the moment that we cant really even do anything fun, but we still have fun just being together.  

With that in mind, my routines are all messed up with the addition of an extra person in my solitary existance.  Im glad shes here, but I understand why I had a hard time keeping the house super clean when the kids were about.  When she hops in the shower is my time to sweep, dust, etc and of course as I type this she is getting ready to go so I shall too.  

Maybe something cool will be seen on the walk today.  Its not a shopping trip so I am taking her on the full route.  Should be fun!  Later lovies <3

lesson learned

So I was all excited for my walk today, it was a short one considering we planned on just going to the store and back.  I forgot to take my meds before leaving and within .25 mile my back was hurting.  I was happy to get to the store so I could sit for a few.  Worst part is that I was nauseas by the time I got home.  Grrr....  Lesson learned, I MUST take my meds before walking.  Sucky routine to have to do but its worth it!

Im back

So I haven't blogged in forever but feel like its a good time to start again.  After all isn't this a forum where I can ramble about the mundane existence that I call my life.  Yep, that's right, you get this...  lol

So things are just about the same in my sad little world.  Romantically - well since I last posted he I and got back together 2ce and broken up again. This time however I am done.  I wish we were friends still however.  Not the hang out type of friends, as I really dont think I could see him in person, but I would be happy to talk email, Facebook, text or even phone.  Unfortunately he is better by erasing me completely.  However that led me to some self revelations that some of you will bitch about, but again, this is my blog, my forum, get over it.  Anyhow, my revelation is this... I am not meant to be in a relationship.   I am toxic.  2ce I have taken good, driven, motivated men, and left them unemployed, and broken.  Others would prefer to completely erase me and any knowledge that they ever knew me.  Thats the part that hurts the most.  It makes me wonder truly what is so wrong with me that it is better erase me that admit they know me.  However I have taken the hint and am not going to put anyone else through that and stay to myself.

So medically I broke down and finally got a Dr.  I explained to him my phobia of Dr's and my past treatment. This Dr is wonderful!  He knows about CVS and even let me know that he has done more research since I became his patient.  He has me on 2 different medications, well 3 if you count the exercising regiment but I am hopeful that it will work.  I have discovered that exercising  will set me off on a CVS attack so we now know how to prevent that.  I was worried about going to the Dr bc *J goes to the same clinic but so far I have been lucky and not ran into him!

On the exercise note, I have been trying to take walks daily.  At first the pain in my back, hips and then tummy was really an issue.  But as I said Dr put me on meds before I go.  So now I take an anti nausea and a couple Tylenol and off I go.   My goal is to find something to mention each day that I notice and bore you with it!! I am up to 3.25 mile per average.  The weight is coming off too and that makes me happy!

Well lovies, I am going to run away as the sleepys are hitting so I am going to run away.  I promise to be more writing of my daily efforts...