Friday evening coffee break :)

Ok, finally a little clarity to play catch up.

Sorry about the last post, I guess I shouldn't have been typing while being shot full of narcotics for a week!  Again, sorry Lily!

This has been a crazy fun week around here!  Sunday was Lenee's first baby shower, with another tomorrow.  It was a lovely occasion in the park, and then a caravan to her and Seans place.  She got alot of nice gifts and showered in love, which is always nice to see!

My sister is in town so we spent a couple days visiting with her as well.  I love my little sister, but with her in Canada, it feels like forever since we have seen each other.  Luckily the Canadian government agrees that she needed a visit to the states.  I guess my illness can be good for something :)

Also this week I got to visit with my bestie Jenni!  It was so wonderful seeing her and the girls again!  We had our own circle of love under the tree that kept shifting with the sun. One of these weekends Im gonna drive over there and spend the weekend.  That will be a fun one!

Lets see... other than the social stuff, not to much to report....

The kittens are doing amazing.  The lil calico went to her new home today.  I know she will be loved and pampered in her new home.  Now to find an equally loving home for the lil boy...  if anyone knows anyone who wants a kitten...

I still think about him... way more than I should.  Nothing sucks more than unrequited love, especially when the object of affection doesn't deserve, or want it...

Miserable week!

Things are finally on the upside so I have some momentarily cleraity to get some of the ordeal down on "paper".

I am currently at Vally General Hospital.  I have now been here for 6 days.  Ugh!!

On Saturday (August 6th) I started not feeling well.  Poor Lilly was at home, but so good and understanding when mom gets sick.  Lots of showers, and lots of vomiting does not make for a fun visit with mom.  She was being picked up Sunday.  Pretty much right after she left, Mama Sue asked if I wanted a ride to the er.  I of course said yes, as this bout wasnt getting any better.  My er visits are pretty typical.  Ususally their are some questions, what works for you, ok lets get you better and off I go.  This time it was differrrent.  They needed xrays bc they found some sort of "obstruction" in there.  Now the fun really begins.I was still throwing up so they decided it was time for the ng tube.  That nasty piece of plastic goes up my noes down my throat and sucks my gut out.  Ewwwwww!!  I could hear the suction... no fun!  The worst part is that it hurt my throat!  My throat is still so raw, everything feel like shards of glass.  Unfortunately I kinda took the tube out by my self.  Not intentionally, but in my very vivid dream if the arrow stayed in place the poisen would certainly be my death!  lol  That could be another reason for my throat hurting like it does.  Im not a dr qualified to remove those things.  The best news is that they didn't put it back and have been letting me eat little things.  I just graduated to a cheese sandwich!  Tastes like heavon!  I want to sleep... maybe its time for morpheine again?  Cant hurt to ask right?

Interview today

Today I have an interview at Center Partners.  I am pretty confident that I will get the job, even though it is not what I wanted to continue doing.  I was hoping to get out of call center work, but I am really good at customer service, and I need to work!  Its the type of interview where you leave employed so hopefully I will have some good news later today!!

Lily will be here on Friday for the weekend.  Yay!  I always enjoy time with her.  I miss her so much!  I know how hard it is to be 14, and she and her father are definitely feeling the pangs of teen angst.  Ugh!  That I don't miss, but I wish that she would talk to me!!

This weekend is also Dana's baby shower for Collin.  Even though he made his appearance early, we still need to celebrate.  I love that little man so much!!

Collin Matthew Meier

I was proud and privileged to witness the birth of my first grandson Collin Matthew Meier into the world Saturday July 30th at 7:42pm.  He weighed 5lbs 9 oz and is 19 inches long.  He has lots of dirty blonde hair and is just beautifully perfect.

As he was born via c-section, we had quite the waiting game for his arrival.  As we were going up to surgery, the tears finally came, my baby was having a baby... this is real.  Dana and I hugged and cried, and away we went.  I held her hand and talked to her while they got him out.  Again the tears came when we heard his first cry.  I kissed her forehead and called her mama.  I stood up and watched as the nurses cleaned him up, weighed him, bundled him and then passed him to me.  I got to be the first family member to welcome him into my arms.  Its been 14 years since I held a baby and felt that instant unconditional love we feel for our children.  I showed him to Dana, she kissed his forehead and Collin and I went to NICU while they finished up with Dana and she went to recovery.  To be reunited in her room a couple hours later.

Moment of "rest"

So today is the big day.  Dana's C-section is scheduled for 8:30pm.  With as much back and forth as the drs have been, I really hope it happens!  Poor Dana is getting frustrated and sooooo impatient!  But it will be wonderful to meet Collin and hold my new grandson!

Did some job apps today.  I applied for a call center position that I am pretty confident about.  I really didn't want to do call center work again, but I'm good at it so...  Also with it being my bane of existence for the last 8 years I'm kinda stuck.  :)

Well, laundry is going and basic chores done so I think its time to shower and get ready to go back to the hospital.  It sure was nice sleeping in my own bed last night!

update...

So the Drs have decided NOT to do the surgery today.  With some changes to her meds, the blood pressure is at a controllable leval so they are going to continue monitoring and see what happens.  Dana will still be having a c-section, but (hopefully) not for another week or 2.  Always best to let baby go close to term!

Side note.... I am freaking exhausted!  I have appointments I need to take care of today but told Dana I will be back tonight and agreed to sleep on the hospital hide-a-bed for another evening.  I know she doesnt want to be alone :)

update...

So  Dana has been admitted to the hospital.  They will be doing a C section tomorrow and we will be welcoming little Collin to the world.  Exciting but scary times.  I will be staying here tonight so she wont be alone.  I will continue to update as we learn more.

the next cycle begins...

Dana has been admitted to the hospital.  Today she went for an appt and they have discovered that the baby is breach.  That, combined with high blood pressure and her epilepsy, they have decided to do a  C-section.  Right now I am waiting to hear from her and then I will be going down there.  They are still doing some tests before getting her settled into a room.

Its such a strange mix of emotions.  I am excited, but concerned.  I still don't know if she is ready for all of this, but she will be a mommy very, very soon...

gate to...

Today I saw a gate to nowhere.  It was off the road a ways, open, and behind it just more wooded area.  There was no sign of a "road" or even trail on either side.  It made me wonder what once was.  Someone loved the gate for it was decorated with a large pot of red flowers on each fence post on either side.  I wish I could've stopped and taken a picture.  Maybe next time...

a day of rejection

I had 4 (yes 1-2-3-4) thank you for applying but we are going with another applicant emails in my inbox today.  Grrrr.   Thats a lot of rejection for one inbox...

On the upside Dana started having contractions last night.  They stopped, and she is currently at her Drs appt, but it definitely means that little Collin will be here soon!

Here we go again / Monday coffee break

So I had another blog, but have had nothing but troubles on the site so I am trying again with a new forum.  I hope that this one works better.  Its not like I have a lot to say... but I like to have a place to say it!

So it was a fairly good weekend.  Both of my adult daughters are expecting so we met in the park yesterday for pictures.  I love them both and am so excited about upcoming grandsons.  I wish I could do more financially, but unfortunately that is not an option right now.  Danielle is due in August and has decided on the name Collin Matthew , and Lenee is due in September and decided on the name Liam James.  They picked good names too!   I foresee an exciting next few months!

I am still unemployed with no nibbles.  Craig has offered me a job, but he is in the process of buying the company so who knows how long that will take.  Its nice to know Im his first pick though.  I really enjoy bookkeeping so it will be a good thing.  He is also being wonderful enough to pay my phone bill this month so I can keep communication lines open.  Who would've thought that he and I would remain such good friends after such a horrible break up.

I heard from *him again.  No contact for almost 2 months and then he graces me with an email about how I should hate him bc he is such a horrible person.  Its sad really.  I have never met anyone so consumed in their own self loathing that they are terrified and shut down at even the hint that someone might care about them.  I wish I could hate him.  I tried...  I cant do it.  I asked Kari why I cant quit thinking about him, and why I let him have such an effect on me... her answer included that dreaded L word... Im not ready to accept that.  I dont really believe in that love stuff anymore.  Sigh... I miss him terribly though.  Even though I know he will hurt me over and over again, being in his arms, even briefly is still worth it!

The kittens are getting bigger.  They are almost a month old now and so adorable.  Im glad there is only 2 of them though, and I think mama kitty is too!  Right now they are trying to learn how to get out of the basket.  They each have made it out once so if they keep practicing soon we wont need the basket! lol